@ Sunday, August 29
im so pissed... with myself. WITH EVERYBODY!
had O levels june paper 2004 maths paper 1 today. i thought i could score well. because i had been studying sooo hard for it a week before. i even aimed an A for it. i thought i will not have any problems solving the questions. but i was wrong.. so fucking wrong.
the paper was much harder than i expected. but everyone else around me told me it was easy. and no matter how hard i cracked my brain to solve those question, i cant find any solution. aaahhhhhh. why this happened?! i feel that i studied so hard for NOTHING! i can't even guarantee a pass.
people around me kept discussing answers while doing the exam. WHY?! even if you score flying colours in this test, its not YOUR EFFORT. i asked my friend [while she was asking around for 'information'] why did she do that. she said "because i dont know how to do ahh, scared i fail"
i was thinking.. "IF YOU FAIL, YOU DESERVE IT"
but it wasn't a nice thing to say. i mean, this exam was created for us to gauge our own standard. why FAKE it?! it wouldn't even be reflected in your PPR. WHY ON EARTH CHEAT?!
im not speaking ill behind my friend's back. i just speak my mind.